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its the first time i cried while im driving home... after fetching justin home, i make a turn to harbour front and stare at the sea... Tears juz keep droppings... Ever since i went in poly, life have change.. and i really mean change... I dun get the free time that i used to have anymore... somemore dar and me juz lidat drifted apart... Hais... She wanted loved and security, but i cant juz give her... We can even hardly meet up for a stroll and even shopping... I really feel im alone... No one is supporting me behind... Anytime i might juz fall out of poly and i really mean anytime.. i seriously cant take it anymore...

What is the meaning of faith and trust? Do u have that for me? i palce my trust and faith in u all along that u wont flirt with other guys and i mean it.. But u? u juz cant trust wat i say... U know why i so pissed juz now? its becos u nv trust me.. Anything, u juz tell jj, xl or kelly.. what abt me? you also nv tell me anything.. Hais.. I dunno why, u can tell things to ur friends and dun tell me. How come i cannot dun tell u what i tell my friends?

If u really wanna know somethin, then i tell u this.. I might juz die anytime cos im breathing heavily at sometime during lecture.. Plus i also get heart pain at times... And i really mean pain like the heart is tearing apart... I also dreamt that i died in a car accident.. To tell u the truth, things that i dreamt sometimes come true but its juz a matter of time.. BUT I dun wan your concern since u dun trust me anymore... Dun even waste ur sms or call me asking how im feeling after u read this...

Cos of 1 china girl word make u so upset... Have u think of my feelings? Everytime u tell me kelly things, u tell me the guys u meet while at job, i also feeling like crying.. But i know you wont flirt cos i trust tht u wont... Why cant u juz trust me? Hais.. Since u wanna think, i also cant stop u... I know u want my old me back, but u have to give me time to adapt to the poly life... Let me tell u another thing bah, in less than 3 weeks time, i'll be having my exam le.. 5 subjects in 1 week... Stress or not is up to u to decide... If u think i have alot of time but juz dun wan to spend with u then wait till u come poly, then u tell me... Hais... Hope u take care of yourself well...


Love is like a knife
it can stab the heart
or it can curve wonderful images
into the soul
that will last a lifetime

saw an terrible accident juz now when on way back... A car juz went on flames then whole car kena burn.. burn till black black till the tyre gone and the metal black... Then saw a lady talking with the policeman on the scene.. dunno izit her car or eyewitness... then saw fireman still putting out the fire and the car still got smoke... The whole road got the debris.. This happen juz beside queensway shopping centre and it took up 2 lanes and left 1 lane to pass.. so the whole junction got jammed up... first time saw car on fire.. Hahaha...

long time no blog le.. hais.. really got no time sia... How i wish can have a school where study something i understand and at my pace... Hais... 3 more weeks then mid term exam liao... So fast sia... Arrggghhh... Damn damn stress ar.... Sorry dar, these few days cant meet u... really damn stress in study... Love u...

Public holiday liao... Hahaha Finally got time to blog... Poly is hard sia... Life is so stressed.. Everyday go home damn tired.. So many lectures and tutorials... Hais... I still wonder did i choose a wrong course... Hais... Head very night also very pain... Miss dar alot... Hais.. Wonder when can we have time to go out and have fun... hahaha...

hais.. my mind is getting confused... Arrggghhh... I know my mummy made a promise to me say if i got in poly she will buy a car for me.. But after i got in, she started to say she dun think she can afford a car.. I was damn sad and juz keep going out with dar^2, leaving the car matter behind... But then.. today my mummy start to tell me about car again... Hais.. Her friend wanna sell his car and ask me to buy.. But problem is the insurance.. My insurance could easily reach 3k... Hais.. Now im sad all over again...

It has been sometime since i last blogged.. HAhaha.. Had a very bz week.. Last week was my 1st week in school... Yes, and i mean SP (Singapore Polytechnic).. My class is very small.. only about 25 ppl total.. Then of these 25 ppl, 8 were ITE direct intakes to second yr like me.. HHAhaha.. The only subject that was a killer was the MAths.. Omg.. Listen the lecture till blur sia... Bu dunno why, when comes to friday, it all seems so tired.. Went back to ITE to submit my scholarship application then go find MR ONG for lunch.. HAhahha.. MR ONg drives (a van) me and dar^2 to SP staff lounge to eat.. HAhaa.. Tml school start again for another week.. Heng not today, if not EID i sure rot till i die cos 4 hours lecture.. OMG...

Yesterday went out with class EC1D again.. EC1D rox man.. Ever since Year 1 in ITE, the team spirit will nv go away... Yesterday actually wanted to eat sush.. But walk alot of sushi store and saw there is no buffet on sunday.. So we went to heeren's Marche to eat.. Cos we got alot of ppl, so we went to the Swiss Room to get a seat.. The Swiss Room tag was placed as open and there were also 2 ppl inside the room when we got in.. Suddenly, a stupid manager came in and say, Who let u guys inside.. then he say the room is closed and go put the tag as closed and chase us out... So we found ourselves a space outside.. Dar^2 ordered the grilled chicken breast and mashed potato.. I ordered the black pepper chicken and cheese roll.. Yum Yum.. Then we settle in with a banana crepes with ice cream for desert.. Hahaha... After paying, we all decided to write feedback.. All write till like compo all so long... Hahhaa.. Then we went to Cathay to watch movie.. 16 blocks.. But too bad we sit in the front.. Our neck all very pain cos too front liao then the screen very wide then have to turn the head here and there... After the show we all go play pool and arcade.. Then 10 me and dar left...

Dar^2 juz recovered from here fever then yesterday was her very first good meal.. Hahaha.. Then she got her shaker fries also... Hope she drinks more water and dun get sick again... Muz take care wor...

And finally i would like to make a very "nice" statement... DONT EVER GO TO HEEREN'S MARCHE.. THEY GOT A F**K UP MANAGER WHO ACTS LIKE A BOSS AND HIS TONE AND ATTITUDE SUX... IF NOT WRONG HIS NAME IS SU SOMETHING..